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Wednesday, May 29, 2013

{Week} 1



Hadley's 1st week:

I cant believe that my little lady is a week old already.

 As soon as i woke up from the drugs i had ben change Hadley into something cute :) I didn't want any pictures with the ugly hospital blankets.


He struggled with dressing her bc he thinks he will break her...

We celebrated her 1st real birthday!

Most adorable baby in the history of babies ;)

My mom came every morning to the hospital to dress Hadley up and take a daily picture of the baby to send everyone. 

Picture after my first shower! it felt amazing!

 Daily pictures :)
After Hadley's first bath we did skin to skin 

 By the end of the 2nd day my milk was in...and in full force. I was pumping so much the nurses were shocked.
He wraps his head every time to not smell her!

 Daddy'd first skin to skin
 Getting ready to leave finally!


Leaving the hospital, she loves her car seat. On the way home we stopped at walmart for my prescription and that was probably the most ridiculous thing to do after a 5day stint in the hospital. 



Got home and realized i couldn't reach the toilet :( so had to send ben to get me a old persons toilet thing at walgreens...FML



 First sponge bath at home


 At exactly one week me my mom and Hadley went on our first shopping trip :)


Hadley all dressed up for her first doctors appointment. She weighed 8 pounds 8oz! she had gained back 6 oz since birth :) thanks to mommy milk. Also at her appointment (at 8 days old) her stump fell off while i was undressing her for the pediatrician!









{Birth} story

I will only ever in this much detail ever tell this story once because quite frankly I have burning hatred towards my midwife and the way my labor went.


Sunday May 19th- our 3 yr aniversary of when we started dating in Fenway Stadium, I "woke up" at 6 (i had been up ALL night with contractions). When i got up I had a small emotional break down and even sent my husband next door to get my mom to calm me down, I was super upset that my baby didn't want to come out and that everyone on my Facebook "May mommies" group we having their babies. 

Once I calmed down I threw some clothes on and decided we would go to the lilac festival and go see "Pain & Gain" in theaters after the NST at the hospital.


9:37-On the way to the hospital I was having horrible contractions and when i got to the triage and spent 20 mins on the NST test the nurse asked if i wanted to be checked by a midwife because my contractions were so strong.



9:57- I of course said yes and when i got checked i was 4cm and 75% effaced and the midwife told us we could stay and be admitted!!!!!


11am-I was given my own room 303 immediately and my mom, Jeff and Jenna all showed up. I breathed very well threw contractions and every 20-30 min the nurse would check the babies heartbeat. Other then that i was not monitored constantly. I walked the halls with my mom and Jenna. The boys watched a baseball game.


2pm- I was checked again and I was at 5-6cm!



2:30- I got in the tub and listened to my ipod to relax and breath threw contractions



3:45- I couldn't take it anymore and got the epidural...Amazing how well it worked at first. I could be having huge long contractions and had no idea. But having a epidural meant i had to be stuck in bed monitored full time and have a folle catheter inserted...BOO


6:40- checked again and was 8cm!




Fun little moments:
My brother is very squeamish and easily disgusted.
Well after the epidural I couldn't feel much and at one point thought my water broke, Ben offered to look and Jeff jumped up and started yelling "Dude! Don't look" "DONT DO IT DONT EVER LOOK" It was hilarious. 
Another funny moment is when my mom asked if i had peed yet with the catheter and without hesitation ben grabbed my urine bag held it up and said "yup she's peed!" I burst out laughing that he would just grab a bag of my urine.


9:45pm- Midwife broke my water and found merconium and also i had a fever so they started me on antibiotics. Also found out the baby was sunny side up (face up).


At 11:58pm They started me on pitocin to make my contractions closer together so I could start pushing. moments later I needed a "pick me up" from the anesthesiologist 

2:05am I was fully Dilated and started pushing. At 2:26 i needed oxygen.

3:20am- Midwife brought in a surgeon and we discussed c section, i declined.

4:35am I stopped pushing again and got another pick me up and rested.

5:57AM- Started pushing again with everyone in the room and was told they could see her head and hair and the baby bed was even heated up like it was go time and baby was coming out....

7am- the midwife drugged me again and told me to rest, i was so confused as to why if she was almost out would you tell me to sleep!!!

9am- the midwife told me her shift was over and the baby was most likely NOT coming out but asked if i wanted to push..the next midwife came in for her shift at that time and asked if i wanted a c-section and i finally agreed!



         11am- I was wheeled into the OR and at 11:18 Hadley Jollie entered the world! I began having crazy shoulder pain so they put me under so I have no true memory of the entire labor or c section, I often wonder wether i would want to remember or not...









12:20pm- We were wheeled into a recovery area and i got to have one visitor at a time (I'm awake in the picture but have no memory of this time). 





2pm- I was in my own post partom room where i would end up staying 5 days! I got an infection (big surprise) and had to stay in the hell hole of a hospital.


Now that the times are given, i will give side stories, like that the midwife would tell my mother to leave bc she was distracting me, or tell me that i wanted a c-section even tho i was the one decline it, the women could not have been more rude or unnatural in her birthing approach. At every chance she would drug 
me and make me unable to speak without slurring.
When the prep began for the c section they removed the catheter and found a huge blood clot on it and when they removed the internal monitors they would they weren't in right and that whole 3 hours i was given pitocin to strengthen my contractions that my contractions were strong enough the whole time the monitors just weren't doing there job!  






Saturday, May 18, 2013

{Week} 41


(not in picture because i went into labor the day of the picture)


Week 41:

Total weight gain/loss: up 32! I now weigh 151 :(

Stretch marks? my belly button sort or ripped.. so i have a line/scar down from it  :( 

Sleep: nope

Best moment this week: Finding out Hadley is estimated to be 9 pounds! and scheduling my induction for 5-22-13

Miss Anything? Being comfortable

Movement: lots  

Food cravings: slushies

Belly Button in or out? flat 

Wedding rings on or off? OFF

Happy or Moody most of the time: done

      Weekly Wisdom:  Sleep and rest not stress and clean everything


Looking forward to: Baby in my arms




 In pregnancy bordom/nesting i preped a coke can box to go in the freezer to hold my stored breast milk.
 After my midwife appointment friday morning at 8 i was sent to the hospital for a NST due to high blood pressure. 6 HOURS later i finally got fed this yummy meal and then sent home.

oMg this is pregnant girl heaven and it took me till i was due to find it :( Mixing mt. dew and blue = heaven!

Thursday, May 16, 2013

{Hadley} letter to baby girl

 Dear Hadley,

       Just thinking about writing this has made me cry so I can only imagine how many tissues I will have used by the end...I want to write you a letter because within the next 3 days you will be born and I know I will never get these moments back and I would never be able to tell you how I felt right before you entered this world. (tears).. ok, me and daddy thought long and hard about when to have you and when we found out we were pregnant it was surreal and daddy didn't believe the test for 4 days, and even took one himself to make sure he wasn't pregnant too! Fast forward 10 weeks, to the day we all learned that you were a GIRL! mommy was so happy and again it was surreal and I couldn't believe it for a few days. As the weeks flew by and in there own right dragged on... I became obsessed with getting everything ready for you. Then one day while daddy was in Germany you decided you wanted to come into this world but thankfully the midwife was able to give me medicine to stop labor because i was only 33 weeks. From that day on we had many contraction and hospital trips. We thought for SURE you would come early! But NO! Today I am 40w 5d and absolutely ready to meet you and see your beautiful face. I have waited my whole life to meet you, since i got my first baby doll when I was 3 i have played house and dreamt of having my own baby. Almost 27 years later the waiting is done and I will have you in my arms VERY soon. I know as soon as your born time will be set on fast forward and I will wish that you were back in my tummy and little forever. But I know you must come out and grow big and strong. I keep envisioning what it will be like the moment they give you to me and that is what keeps me going everyday that i'm overdue. Daddy is so excited to see you too, 3 days ago he made grandma think it was go time and go all excited. He says he's not ready but I know the moment he sees your face that he will be wrapped around you tiny little finger, I honestly cant wait to see his reaction when he holds you for the first time. Without ever seeing you I already know I love you more than words can ever explain and thats scary because I already want the best for you and nothing bad to ever happen to you. I love your daddy so much and I cant believe together we made a beautiful baby and we get to spend the rest of our lives together as a family. Ok baby girl you can come now, I just want you to always know how much i love you and would do anything for you and no matter what you do or how angry you think i would be just know I will always love you and always be there for you. 


                                                      Love
                                                    Mommy

Monday, May 13, 2013

{weekly} Update #3

Went to miniature golf to try and see if Hadley would come out.....NOPE!





^ i look like so damn tired! ^

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typical convo between me and my loving husband 


For mothers day Ben got me a hammock, wine and alcohol breast milk testing strips :) 



^ on monday i went to the gym and walked 2.3 miles on the treadmill to see if i could walk her out and all i did was give myself insane strong contractions! FAIL


my unhappy bump day picture this week :(


Went yesterday for my NST (non stress test)
and Ultrasound to check amnio fluid and found Hadley is weighing in at 9 POUNDS!!!!!! 

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~Tomorrow is my next midwife appointment (with the midwife i hate most) and i'm really hopping we set up my induction day :) !!!